The rope that’s wrapped around me Is cutting through my skin And the doubts that have surrounded me Are finding their way in I keep it close to me Like a holy man prays In my desperate hour It’s better that way So I’ll come by and see you again I’ll be such a very good friend Have mercy on my soul I will never let you know Where my mind has been Angels never came down There’s no one here they want to hang around But if they knew If they knew you at all Then one by one the angels Angels would fall I’ve crept into your temple I have slept upon your pew I’ve dreamed of the divinity Inside and out of you I want it more than truth I can taste it on my breath I would give my life just for a little death So I’ll come by and see you again I’ll be just a very good friend I will not look upon your face I will not touch upon your grace Your ecclesiastic skin I’ll come by and see you again I’ll have to be a very good friend If I whisper they will know I’ll just turn around and go You will never know my sin
The Doctor is in.
Saturday, January 22, 2005 :: 07:03 p.m. ::
1:03 PM 1/13/2005
Why bother? As f they care
yes! you Smart girl!
...but what if it's not
Then tell them "Go!"
Maybe. I talk too much these days.
shhh..they might hear you.
And they will come to get mE!
GRRHHHHRRRRR~~!
1:04 PM 1/13/2005
nothing
1:04 PM 1/13/2005
hiya!
1:32 PM 1/13/2005
Camera will make you god. Yes, camera will make you god.
5:39 PM 1/13/2005
This house is so dead. Everyone is so dead.
I can't breath!
5:42 PM 1/13/2005
you're immortal and a lamb of god. yes, lamb of god.
5:49 PM 1/14/2005
I saw a blue bird. Maybe it's just the color of my hair. And i see stars.. I think my blood sugar is low. I feel ill.
2:51 AM 1/15/2005
watashi wa hitori.... wow...
3:48 AM 1/15/2005
I just realized how "simple" my life is... I lived like a bug! my life is so mundanE. To the point that everything is nothing but a routinE. I spend my day between home and schooL. Home and schooL. Home and school. (Okay, not entirely. I do go to groceries and visit mia sometimes.) In school, it's nothing but getting pissed and indulging myself with the free internet servicE. At home, it's nothin but getting pissed and indulging myself with my JRock chuvaneS. See! A bug's life! This is how simple my [brain] life is.
4:01 AM 1/15/2005
Gackt's Mind Forest and Last Song are the two "must-loop" these days. Listen to them especially when you are sick.
The Doctor is in.
Friday, January 14, 2005 :: 11:03 a.m. ::
I owe this page some happy posts. I'll post something happy today.
but I'm not!!! Wah!!! It's been a long time i did not see him... what will I do?! I'm happy..hohoho...I'm happy...
The Doctor is in.
Friday, October 1, 2004 :: 02:27 p.m. ::
I'm not a destructive person. I don't destroy things when I'm angry.
But I really want to kill somebody now.
okay, I confess. I'm agressive, I've immature, I'm not a kind person and I have no mercy. For me, if you don't deserve it, then you don't.
and Miss-What-do-you-think-of-me?-Of-course-I-konw-what-you're-talking-about! (the truth is "no", you don't. I know you are reading this. Fuck you, Bitch. I wish that you burn in hell with your guts) is so stupid. I'm saturated with her stupidity already. I can't at all respect her anymore.
Fine, do it you way. All of you. I'm the enemy of the people. ENEMY!
The Doctor is in.
Friday, September 24, 2004 :: 04:56 p.m. ::
I (finally) finished my theology orals this morning.
I screwed up.
And that is just so bullshit. According to my classmate, the highest score as of the moment is only 43/50. That's what, a B? I'm not expecting to get an A, but I don't want to fail! I'm not performing well in theology. I'm not a Bible person. I don't like to interpret scriptures! (And I don't like to read things that after 7 pages, I still don't see the point.) I do not know how to impress my teacher. I know what kind of answer my teacher was expecting but, I got a mental blank of the other details! Wa!!!
By the way, I dressed for this exam. (Well, it was required) But the attire did not boost my confidence at all (I think what I needed was some MAC foundation. haha)
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*****
I was searching for the song "humayo't Ihayag" online just awhile ago, and i came across this livejournal. Apparently that girl just took her ACET. Whatever, that't not my point. My thing is, I don't know why but she was able to annoy me simply by saying how "grosssssss" the placenta is. Well, girl, you were once covered with that "groooossssss" thing, ya know. But well, her puppies are cute. And i think there is something about "debate" (aha, the word "debate" is not just any ordinary word for me now) but anyway,
backt to ME
mumu sent me some pictures of toshiya. god, he is sooo fucking handsome. I want to marry him, just like how ate Setsuna wants to marry Gackt.
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I see my crush almost every day. hohoho, happy happy. He is this person who really looks like Jxxx. Funny, sobrang kamuhka sila. pero lalaki siya. haha. (the person in front of me is staring at me. scary)
The Doctor is in.
Wednesday, September 22, 2004 :: 05:08 p.m. ::
i was very diligent, (how do you spell this word?)i was trying to update my live journal, but it turns out that the consipiracy against me hasn't ended yet. I can't post there. so, here i am again.
We went to GB last saturday. Shyt. Full of cute boys. I shall return.
May baliw talaga un mga computer dito sa school. they refuse to function properly. I'm annoyed. this is not right, I only have..what, 10 min before my next class starts?! Fucker, work!
Oh, Ateneo lost to LaSalle at the game yesterday. Byebye championship...see you again.(It pains to elaborate. I shall continue next time...huhuhu)
i don't know why but I'm so pissed again. Maybe because it's monday. I hate mondays.
okay, I will go now. I will come back later. bleh~~~!!
The Doctor is in.
Monday, September 20, 2004 :: 08:58 a.m. ::
Manson is releasing a new album: Lest we Forget. This is something like the best collection with some new singles.
The track listing is as follows:
1. The Love Song
2. Personal Jesus
3. mOBSCENE
4. The Fight Song
5. Tainted Love
6. The Dope Show
7. This Is The New Shit
8. Disposable Teens
9. Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)
10. Lunchbox
11. Tourniquet
12. Rock Is Dead
13. Get Your Gunn
14. The Nobodies
15. Long Hard Road Out Of Hell
16. The Beautiful People
17. The Reflecting God
I have not yet heard all of the songs here. I feel bad...but anyway, at least, may best collection na rin si manson. ei, happy happy.
i was utterly pissed for the past few days. in fact, i think it will continue as i got home. i finally found the reason: pms. even it is not yet my sched. pero, bahala na. i'll blaim it to my hormones. hahaha.
I thought free cut un theology ko kanina. hindi pala. kinat ko. mwahahaha. (bahala na. i don't like my teacher. he got mad at us all the times. parang nagmemenupause na sya).
somemore complaints about my classmates. they are so >_< basta. sana mamamatay na sila...huhuhuhu...
i had a dream this morning. It was about Jxxx! My Gad. he was calling my name in the dream and i didn't know what to do..i responded with a "yes..., may i help you..." may gad.. K, you loser! Anyway, i could feel his tricepts... my gad. my gad.
anyway, UAAP game ADMU vs DLSU this sunday... (for the nth time.) GO ATENEO ONE BIG FIGHT! GO ATENEO ONE BIG FIGHT!
good luck to my sister. It's ACET tomorrow. i hope she will pass, even if i don't want her to be here
The Doctor is in.
Friday, September 17, 2004 :: 02:04 a.m. ::
today is another bad day. I don't like seeing my blockmates but i have no choice. so, i think i will blog more often now since there is no other ways for me to relax myself. There will be another ADMU vs. DLSU game this sunday. I hope we will win. Our teacher told us that if we win, he will give us a bonus in the exam. WE HAVE TO WIN. I only got a 16/25. That was evil. Actually, that is what i hate about comparative anatomy orals exams. I lose my calm everytime i see my teacher. i don't know why but i get mental blanks during every oral examination. I will be having my first Theology oral exam on wednesday. Mumu...Setsuna...help!!!!!
The Doctor is in.
Thursday, September 16, 2004 :: 05:27 p.m. ::
What the fack is wrong with the world? (Swear, swear. It's not my fault) I hate my course blockmates. They are all bullshit. bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit (I like repeating myself. Yes, I really like repeating myself) Anyway, I am pissed. I'm really pissed. Whenever people have problems about the projects that I'm handling, they don't tell me. Hey, I'm your fucking leader/beadle/whatever. If you don't fuck with me, go to hell. Even miss I-have-a-boyfriend-now-so-bye-bye-friendship. Puntang ina nyo! One more thing. Wala na akong payong! (walang connection. sorry po.) M lost my one last umbrella. It's raining pretty hard these days. I really hate it. I'm pissed. and hey! I've got to report tomorrow! What am I reporting? Placental and kidney hormone. Endocrinology was never my favorite. I'm trying my best to get it over.
bakit ang hirap ng buhay ng mga bio students? It's been three weeks na. every week is my hell week. i don't know if there will ever be a day na I don't need to worry for a quiz or project deadline. I'm just second year! Don't torture me. Comparative anatomy is hard enough. Don't give us theology anymore!(ei, did I mention that my chem teacher is a bastard? I think i did. yeah, I just bitched about him last time...)
I only have one wish now. To finish my college years ALIVE. I don't think I have a life. I haven't went to a mall for...what, three months! I have not yet gone home since the start of school! The farthest place I've been..hm..ok. Rustan's. The supermarket that's 5 min away from my place. (ei, there is a guy beside me, super cute. And he is wearing a ADMU 14 shirt! haha. A Fonacier fan like me )
It's 7pm and I'm still in school. I will be going to Eliazo later to finish a bullshit report on the Centaur's respiratory/circulatory system. shyt. i hate my groupmates! (Sir Cruz, you better have my report published by ORP. Swear, that's the only reason that's pushing me to do the job now.)
AdMU vs. DlSU finals kanina. We lost. Not surprised. But still, it hurts. (as of 4th/00:00 --- 69:82)
The Doctor is in.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004 :: 06:22 p.m. ::
Today is Thurday. Another annoying thursday. Thanks to my chem lab teacher,Mr. Baboon. Sir, you know what? I pray to gad everyday that you will disappear from my life ASAP. But it doesn't seem to work. So I'll just keep on cursing. IhateyouIhateyouIhateyouIhateyouIhateyouIhateyouIhateyouIhateyou!!!! Devil, i wil curse you to the end of the world!! ****** I watched Bamboo's concert yesterday in my school. (Bamboo is a Filipino band/singer)My gad. he is so sexy. I thought he is chobby (once again, the tv fooled me), but NO! ang payat nya! grabe, sexy sexy.. ****** Advance happy Birthday for Setsuna ^_~ Mwah!
The Doctor is in.
Thursday, September 9, 2004 :: 05:51 p.m. ::
I feel screwed up... and i think i am. I hate maintaining relationships with acquaintances. they are so unstable. you'll never know if they really are friendly. I sound like a high school girl... but i'm really bothered. I wanted to disappear for one day and see if the world will care or not...and i found out that "no!" the fucking world wouldn't give a fucking damn to what i am. huhuhu..i feel bad.
and i still have so many assignments... i got 84/160 for my comparative anatomy exam. hurray!!!! a big fucking F! ah, whatever. life is full of bullshits...but i'm still alive. and I LOVE YOU JESS!
that's all for now
The Doctor is in.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004 :: 10:52 a.m. ::
I will not ignore my page anymore. After all, mumu made it for me. (so, what's the connection?)
Class will start soon, and I'm not excited...this is unusual, I ought to be jumping with joy. Hey, K, you can see Jxxx again! Don't you like that? But..but.. i have so many project proposals to make...and I'm not yet done...they are due this sunday... It's summer yet I'm fully loaded with school works... non-academic though.. Whose fault is it to be so involved in the org? Me... Then shut up. huhuhu
I'm having insomnia...i sleep at 4am everyday.
i'm being regressive. I'm thinking like a child again. But i don't want to remember my childhood things. I'm disturbed now.... somebody help me...
The Doctor is in.
Friday, June 11, 2004 :: 04:55 p.m. ::
fine fine fine. don't show up. never show any pictures here. fine fine fine!
The Doctor is in.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004 :: 05:13 p.m. ::
